Saturday, September 20, 2008

Get Out- and Take Your Stupid Arrows With You!

Why do you bedevil me so? Do you delight in my pain, regret and sorrow? Do you intentionally aim your weaponry at me or are you just that careless? I've had enough of your exquisite curse and I ask you respectfully to leave me be. You could not possibly consider it a kindness to leave me in such a state. Lonely, confused, angry, full of remorse and mourning. In your eternal childlike state you know not what you foist upon us hapless mortals. I sincerely hope a parent-god confiscates that errant bow and thrashes with it your naked thighs for causing all this trouble.

Now stay away from my threshold or I will pepper your seraphic pinons wish some non-ethereal buckshot.

Sincerely,

Eddie

Sunday, September 14, 2008

First Times for Everything

I heard a musician interviewed recently and the reporter asked him why there are so many more sad songs than happy ones. The answer was simple and rang true. "When you are happy and in love you are all about feeling that and spending time with that person. When it ends you have a whole lot more time on your hands."

So yeah, I haven't been writing much lately but for the above reason, that will probably change.

My latest connection to go throttle up and belly down was definitely different. I have never been courted before. I have never grown to love someone after initially thinking there was no attraction.

I've also (until this person) never loved someone BEFORE I had sex with them.

There's also another important first. I've never broken up with someone of my own choice when I still actively loved them. Usually they break up with me or I wait until I pretty much detest them to end things.

In this case, I still care for her very much. Not that it has a future, or is good for me, or provided what I needed. In the past I ignored those things and held to my love like grim death. This time I did what I needed to keep myself fully respected. At least by my most important person. Me.

Goodbye M Darcy. Thanks for the dance.