The Gay Bomb

Yeah, had to throw another vid of my fave TV hottie in here. I think it is funny how MSNBC tarts up Rachel to look more girly when she goes on their show. This is one of my fave clips. Rachel Maddow is indeed the ultimate 'gay bomb'.

My TV Crush

So I've developed a crush on a TV/Radio personality named Rachel Maddow. I always thought she was moderately appealing but the more I learn about her the more hot she becomes in my eyes. Hmm- sounds like a certain person I'm dating. OK, pay no attention to the fact that she looks just a little bit like someone I'm dating also. Yeah, ignore that. She's hella-funny, freakishly smart and is a Rhodes Scholar. Mmmm, yummy.

Why Am I Single?

Someone close to me asked me this yesterday so I decided to really think about it. Below is what I concluded:

Yeah, why is that?

Many of my friends tell me I'm the catch of the century. That's debatable but I guess when it comes to actual reasons I'll cover what I mentioned today.

1) I'm picky. Surprisingingly enough, I have very high standards for someone I would consider for a long-term relationship. I do have a bit of a list of my ideals. Wanna see?
Intelligent
Spiritual
Kind
Funny
Considerate (which also includes smelling good and having good etiquette and manners)
Good to the earth
Self-sufficient
Good to their friends, and to animals
Self-confident
Not a doormat, but not a control freak either
Non-smoker, non drug user, non-heavy drinker
Sex positive
Reader
Optimistic
Employed with stability (also includes their own place to live and a car)
No major unresolved trauma or diagnosable mental illness or psychotropics

Doesn't sound like that difficult a list but it is damn near impossible to find all those things.

2) I'm weird. Most people just don't 'get' me. I have a weird communication style and most people I meet think I'm not very interesting. I've never been great at small talk. I live in my head a lot. I'm bookish, political, spiritual, geeky and easily distracted by shiny objects. After all, I'm an angel that lost a bet. I don't really fit in with many people. I don't think of these qualities as undesirable, just sometimes lost on the general population- at least of this era.

So, long story short I may be picky, but a lot of picky people don't pick me.


3) I'm pretty cynical. I've been hurt- more than once- and I don't trust people. I trust myself but really no one else. It is much easier to connect for a while with a random woman here or there and if I don't have expectations, I don't worry about being disappointed. I still have needs for connection and sex, but I have trained myself to not have an expectation that anything will last. I just try to completely connect in the moment and I'm sure the future will take care of itself. I know I'll always have friends in my life anyway.

Dancing With M Darcy

Elizabeth Bennet: Did I just agree to dance with Mr. Darcy?
Charlotte Lucas: I dare say you will find him amiable.
Elizabeth Bennet: It would be most inconvenient since I have sworn to loathe him for all eternity.

****

Indeed.
A truly unexpected evolution.
I did- not that many months ago- consider this person an unmitigated ass.
What happened to that deplorable personage, and what immortal hand or eye created the one I now gaze upon with sweetness?
Surely it is not the same person. Surely I am not the same myself.
Well, throw me down in that briar patch. I can't wait to see what happens next.

Arugula's Return

I never got it all out of my garden. I just couldn't. Sure, with enough effort I COULD have, but I never really wanted that. It was indeed powerful, precious and undeniable. It may only be here for a season but I've decided to stop trying to pull it up by the roots and just let it be.

Now about this arugula. It's beautiful, smells good and is incredibly satisfying. I'm actually glad it is both an aquired taste and that not everyone embraces it or sees its amazing qualities. I guess I always did have a taste for the exotic. I'm looking forward to having it again soon- and often.